This week has been miserable. I have spent most of the weekend in the ladies room- not powdering my nose either. My mother was so concerned she shipped me off to the Brigham to get checked out. I thought I had a simple sinus infection, but I started coughing and then the stomach thing got worse. They decided a course of IV antibiotics at dialysis would cover me. Of course, the day after you start any antibiotics you usually feel like shit because the arsenal is in full effect killing off the nasties- kind of like natsis. But on Saturday, after getting up from dialysis 4 times to go the bathroom , coming home to more of the same and being pretty much dehydrated my mother insisted I go to her house. I ate some crab and half a burger which lasted all of 20 minutes. I promised myself I would study for the real estate exam and catch up on all my email and letters but most of what I did was try to keep my sanity. I cleaned up the layer of dirt that sticks to my feet as a sashay to the bathroom. No I can swiffer witout incidence. I felt bad that my mom was so worried. Darryl was more concerned about knowing if my debt was getting resolved and when my divorce would be final. Anne is handling that so that is what I told him. Let him call her.
I have been trying to get to bed earlier with help, of course from my klonopin but nonetheless I am not suffering from anxiety as much.
I went to Pete's surprise 30th birthday party that my friend Alison, his girlfriend, through for him. Due to the stomach I made a short appearance, but a worthehile one I think. ALison put in a tremendous effort to pull off the surprise and to prepare for him. Connor was one his best behavior and I am always impressed, although he is needs ADHD meds, how well-behaved and lovable he is. She did a great job as a single mom. Carrie spent the weekend with her aunt and got season opener tickets for the patriots. I am supposed to have class that night but we'll have to see if I can even afford to go to school. So much up in the air including this great big storm cloud tht has been following me around latelty.
more happy thoughts later aned I promise to all of you that I will be in touch soon.